I want that TOO

So what the hell is up with this crazy innate ability to make yourself feel like shit over something someone else has? Too much, too fast? Ok, let me slow my roll so you can jump on the train with me...I went to buy a baby gift I found off a local "Buy-Sell-Trade" Facebook page. The seller was local, also a mom to a little girl, a couple years younger than mine. We chatted a bit and I added a couple more of her items for sale to my pile. She mentioned all the toys her daughter had and how big their house was. Sure, fine, it was an average house. I sell real estate, I see tons of houses all the time, this one was nothing to write home about. I thought nothing of it. I paid the girl, gathered my things and was ready to head out the door when she mentioned again that they had several large toys in their living room, but that it was ok since it was such a large space. Ok, chick, WTF? I'm standing in your house, I can see its a decent size. I probably won't ever see you again..what do I care what size your house is!? I brushed it off and headed home. After what seemed like 8 days of errands I found myself turning onto my cross street and looking over my back fence to my comfortable older home. That's when that SOB crept up and started talking to me..."Look at how small your house looks from here...it's older you know, and not in one of those new "fancy" housing tracts. You don't have a big dinning room, or a large living room. Maybe one day you can move and get a house like that chick!" I had to push that creep out of my head and remind myself that bigger is NOT better, my house was just fine and I actually loved living there. What does it matter that is maybe on the small side for some, or too old for others. It's charming, affordable and best of all MINE. This pointless story has the same backbone as so many stories in my daily life...It get's old, ya know!? Why all the noise, all the talking, all the comparing. Why not more silence, happiness, best of all contentment. What happened to that? Why is it all about the competition, having what others have or longing to get things we don't really need. This has all been said and talked about before....Why is it continually brushed aside only to make room for more comparison and depression? With that, I will promise to try to be real and most importantly be me...and be ok with that.

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